I think there is probably a misconception that the more babies you have the easier it gets. In some ways it’s easier and you know what to expect but if there is one thing that never changes for me or gets easier it is the worry. The nerves. The things that can go wrong. And when things have gone wrong in the past it turns you into a nervous wreck. I’m still not enjoying this pregnancy as much as I probably should because I just worry so much. And I’ve always been that way….whether it’s been my first or the twins or my 6th. But we are so over the moon to be having another baby as I really didn’t think it was going to happen.
Yesterday was my 19 week scan and I was a bundle of nerves. I couldn’t think of anything else and was praying and trying to be positive about it all. I try not to pray to make things happen but rather that I know it’s in your hands God so I’m leaving it up to you and then I say but please make sure everything is ok with our baby. The scan went so well and it always amazes me the difference from a 12 week scan to that 19 week scan where you see everything about the baby…including whether it’s a boy or girl.
And yes we found out what we are having. I have to. I know some people love to and some people would never find out. For me I need to know to get those needles working overtime and to start getting ready for the baby. Now my dad and grandma betty sit in the don’t want to know camp….that was a bit tricky with my mum as she liked to know and would keep it a secret – well I hope she did:) But this time I’ve been asked not to put it out there on the net and just keep it to family and I’m respecting that. As big as my mouth is and as excited as I am to share the news this is our baby not just mine so I’m sticking to that. And I might need to keep a few projects off ravelry or do a few neutral projects to keep the secret.
p.s I would love to show you more photos but turns out one of the little ones has taken the pictures to school today for news…………………..without telling me!!!!!