Well easter is upon us and the older I get the more it means to me. And this might be a post just for my Christian readers out there. In fact I get more emotional at Easter than I do at Christmas. Growing up we always did mass every sunday and especially Easter but never the Good Friday service. Retro daddy loves to tell the kids about hanging out at home every year in his sunday best after getting home from stations of the cross and waiting for the 3pm service. And so when we got married we started going to the 3pm Good Friday service and I fell in love with it.
It is so moving and I always shed a tear. It was so new to me when we started going but it is full of so much tradition and just a beautiful way to celebrate easter. This year, Good Friday coincides with the 2 year anniversary of losing my dear mum. So tomorrow’s service is set to be the tear jerker of all tear jerkers for me. It was my faith that got me through the hardest of days. That answered my questions of why we have to lose our loved ones and to know that there is something better waiting for us.
And it made me realise that life is to be lived. That my purpose here is to have my family and to live a good life. Before that I always had those questions like why am I here and what happens when I die. I used to get into a panic when I’d think about what would happen when life is over here. But those questions don’t really pop into my head as much because I know I’ve given life to 5 little people who will go on to have their families.
Today I had Finn home with me and when we got to the cemetery I asked him to say a little prayer – I thought he’d just stand up but he knelt down and said a quiet little prayer. Oh what a sweet boy.My job is done with him. Meanwhile I managed to turn a pretty floral arrangement into a total mess trying to poke the stems into the holes of the pot.
And I’m not much of a bible quoter here on this blog as I know we come with different beliefs and backgrounds and in fact I might have just said last week I don’t do bible quotes on this blog. But heh it’s easter and this is something that gave me such peace and still does……………………
“In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” John 14:2-3.
And so I wish you a very happy and holy easter weekend and time with your loved ones. And if you are thinking about going to church this Easter but not so sure. Well just go. It fills a place in my heart that nothing could ever fill. And I’m so grateful to my mum for my faith and bringing me up with it.