sitting outside

I’m doing a parenting course at the moment for parents of special needs kids and it’s been so informative and helpful. I had missed last week because of the accident but went last night and it was about conflict and also managing our anger and feelings. I drove home and realised the reason I’ve been so cranky and in a bad mood the past week and a half is the anger I’m still feeling over what has happened to our big girl. It’s funny how we think we’re fine but then can’t understand why we have no patience, are cranky and upset all the time. I’ve been telling people how fine I was but really I knew I wasn’t. So I realised that I need to move on from how I’m feeling over how this happened.

Life was so perfect when we moved here and I knew at the back of my mind that saying it was perfect would mean something would go wrong. I just knew it. I almost put in a blog post that I didn’t want to write how perfect everything was because something could go wrong. And it did. But this morning I’ve woken up and decided to not be angry and be aware of how I am treating everyone. We’re back to the hospital for another x-ray and the 3rd cast on today and hopefully some crutches to get around with the aim of getting her back to school in a week or two. I also have a bag of wool to drop off to the lovely volunteers at the children’s hospital who knit and crochet for their little shop.

Sitting outside yesterday and then chasing this little guy around is one way I feel better. Chocolate and a nice cup of tea is another. The birds sing all day and my little man just runs around listening and looking for the birds, chasing the ball, calling out to me to ‘come on’ and just having fun. And just hanging out the washing and looking at the beautiful view reminds me that life is good out here and I have a lot to be grateful for.


  1. This parenting business can be really tough at times but is the most precious, awesome job in the world! Isn’t it great that we live I a country where we can access excellent medical treatment as soon as we need it, particularly when it comes to our little ones. Hope today goes as well as it can and that you can continue to focus on the many blessings that we enjoy everyday. xx

  2. Melanie says:

    Hang in there Retromummy! While you are trying to consider the way you treat others try not to be too hard on yourself!

  3. Good luck for today Corrie. I hope Keira gets back is healing well and gets back on her feet soon, poor little munchkin xx

  4. Theresa says:

    Good gal seriously hard to identify this for yourself but very wise & you will be able to move forwards with a touch more peace inside-well done; prayers & kindness to yourself indeed. It’s tough being the strong one – the parent, all the time. Xo

  5. Susan Leach says:

    Thinking about you lots. Hope the hospital visit goes well.

  6. Kylie B says:

    Such a timely post for me, and now I “get it”. Sunday afternoon turned badly for me as along with my sister we managed to lose my two children temporarily at the beach whilst I am 39 weeks pregnant. Yes the afternoon was too good to be true and we took our eyes off the ‘ball’ for a second. Ive been tired and cranky ever since, yep thanks for the diagnosis Corrie you have solved the mystery. Thought I could just blame Pregnancy tiredness but think its a bit of everything but have definitely become achy also from the stress. Thanks for reminding me to make a cup of tea and just SIT! Thinking of you and more settled times ahead, Kylie xx

    • oh my goodness that’s one of my worst nightmares! I would still be feeling shaken from that you poor thing! so glad you found them and all is well but yes take those moments with a cup of tea and breathexxxxx good luck with your new baby, wish I was 39 weeks:)

  7. Christie says:

    Regardless of how perfect everything may be if you’ve been under massive stress it takes a toll on your body and emotions and moving is one of the most stressful things you can do! Sometimes stress has a way of catching up with you and the only thing you can do is surrender and nurture until…..

  8. Sometimes as mum’s we just have to let go of the unfairs that happen and move on and focus on our families….it sucks but it is better for all !!

  9. Karri Brennan says:

    With that view, I wonder how you get anything done! I’d be out there eating chocolate and sipping tea all day 😉

  10. Your course sounds great! I’d love to learn more about it. With such a terrible break I can imagine you might have been in shock as well as dealing with all the other emotions involved. Be kind to yourself – i.e. have some more chocolate, tea and a big rest.

  11. Hi Corrie,
    You really have a lot on your plate at the moment. I for one really appreciate your honesty that it’s not easy and you are not perfect. It makes those of us reading feel like we are not the only one/the imperfect one. So much of this online world is all about the pretty and the perfect and the wished-for life.
    I am not perfect and I certainly don’t have all the answers, but what I can say is just take one day at a time, one hour at a time if you need to. Those happy moment having coffee or sitting in the sun are sometimes all we can cling to – and eventually they add up to a good day/week/month.

    Hugs, Leoni xx

  12. not to trivialize what Kiera and your whole family are going through, but I Hooghly of you yesterday when I saw chocorn (from that tv show) back in woolies – hope you can find some near you to enjoy with your big girl while you watch a movie while the littlies are at school/sleeping one day!!
    hope her next cast enables her to get up ad about a bit more, gosh she must be going stir crazy!

  13. Enjoy the blissful moments outside with your little man. I hope you find balance and your stress levels drop. I’ve been trying to figure out why I am impatient and cranky towards members of my own family. It is wrong. I know it is. Some days I try my hardest and have good days. Other days I’m running low on patience. Tomorrow is a new day! Thank you for this post Corrie

  14. Thank you for such an honest post – to hear that you have some “down” moments helps me feel I’m normal, as I have a lot of those moments too, and I think it’s just me!
    I hope Keira’s appointment goes well, and that you continue to take moments for you to remember the goodness that continues to be in this world we live in.
    Much love.

  15. Corrie, I am so glad the group is supportive for you and no doubt allows you to reflect on all the positives and also process what happened to Kiera and move forward. I did a great workshop when Coop was born about grief and loss of parenting a child with a disability but also about hope and resilience. I think I need one now for parenting a 9 year old! Bron xx

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